Hi my friends! Today I will finish life story...
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One
week later…
Again at work.. I asked her are you okay? She said yes. So I thought it
is time to tell everything. (Finally I was ready to tell her everything. I was
waiting just for a good moment.) I didn’t need to wait very long..
35 minutes later…
She went on brake. I was sent on brake as
well. We went outside. For few minutes was silence.. So I made the first step.
- What is the reason for which one you are
not saying anything? (me)
- Nothing important. And what is about you?
(she)
- My reason? (huh) Do not pretend that you
don’t know it. (me)
- (huh) I really don’t know. (she)
- My reason is You. I just can’t keep everything inside me
anymore. It’s so hard to work with you, to see you all the time. It’s so hard
to know that we will never be together..(me)
- It’s my fault. (she)
- Why it is your fault?(me)
- Because I came back here. (she)
- Do not even think about that. It is not
your fault. It is mine. I choose you, no, not me, my heart choose you. You know
that we are not able to control our hearts. Our minds can control us, our eyes
can see beauty, our ears can hear nice words and sounds.. But only heart
choosing with who and when we gonna fall in love. Everything depends just from
her.(me)
- You know how hard is for me right now. You
know that it will never happens. ( she)
- That’s why I am not asking you to tell what
do you feel to me. I am not waiting for any answers. I just wanted to tell you
how I feel.(me)
Finally, what I wanted to tell her so long time ago.. I told. It was
hard to control myself, was hard not to start to cry.. But you was able to see tears
in eyes.. I just wanted to thank her that she was listening me, that she was
able to understand me, understand everything. How I feel.. I asked her one more
question. “Do you remember when I said that once I was in love with one girl? “
She said yes. I said to her that actually now I understand that I was wrong. What do you mean? (she). About
that love, now I understand what does it mean, what does it mean that word LOVE
and how it feels. What kind of happiness she gives & what kind of pain it
is, how it hurts you inside, how it hurts your heart at same time. However, my
Heart & my Love will always belongs to you… I stand up & start going
away.. I whispered & I hope so she heard the last my words from my mouth :
“ I will always be loving you”. ( That moment than I close the doors I realized
one important thing.. That we will never
be together.. That I will never be able to see her beautiful smile, gorgeous
eyes, I will never be able to hug her as I always wished & the most
important thing which one I will never be able to do is that I will not be that
guy who gonna wake up with her in the morning, bring her coffee at bed , looks
at her and tells how strong he loves her & that he will never let her go
away). I was surprised that such a creatures like humans are able to feel such
a pain inside themselves. My heart was broken but all my minds was still about
her..
What I want to tell you is that I don’t feel regret for what I did. Now
I feel better. Because I know that she knows that I love her so much and I will
never forget her. I will never forget than she told me that “ I am the only one
guy who can make her smile, who can make her laugh even than when she don’t
want to think about that at all. “ Whenever I remember these words I always start
smiling. I don’t know why but perhaps because I know that she was happy with
me.. I am happy if she is happy! & one more thing for you people do not be
afraid to tell people what you feel to them, maybe that person is afraid as well… Anyway, somebody has to make
a first step so do not miss it! As one girl said to me better feel regret for
what you did neither for what you didn’t.
That was life and love experience!
Hope
you gonna like it.
With
love, Anonym.
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